Sometimes life's intoxicating.

Well, gotta get down on Friday right? It's been such a hard few weeks. Yes, I know. All I seem to be doing lately is complaining, but I've come to think of this as my virtual therapy. A spur the moment virtual piece of paper to just explode all my messy and complicated thoughts on. 

For all the words I couldn't say. 

I am soooo ready to graduate, that whole "Starting over and beginning again" is sounding better and better with each passing month. 

It's like my life has been set in motion for good. Like now I just HAVE to keep going, almost like there's never a break, but I have hope. 

I

WILL

GET 

THROUGH 

THIS.

-Dearest Lovely

On a late note.

I

HAVE

SO

MUCH

GOING

ON.

Kina feels like the world is spinning and spinning and I'm to dizzy to get up.

I wanna be better..I wanna smile too. Why is it so hard? But I guess that's why life is a trial.

Sometimes I sit and think of all the things I'm sorry for, but that's for a later time.

But ya know what? Sometimes, I believe in six impossible things before breakfast.

-Dearest Lovely

I'll be honest

I'll be honest,

It's hard....okay, really hard.

Not to want to have someone, someone to let your know your beautiful, amazing, and someone who won't...well you know, be stupid.

Sometimes I wonder why? I wanna shut myself away in a little box at times. Do I sound dramatic yet? But seriously though, I look at the girls who always seem to have someone liking them; the ones who always have a new man on the horizon....I wonder when the last time was that I ever watched a sunset with a guy...but I digress.

ANYWAY, then there's those moments. Ya know. When the optimism sets in and your like "Men? Who cares? NOT ME,"  But let's not lie to ourselves, after awhile...we do. Everyone does. Love, the very word makes my heart ache, when? Why doesn't come faster for me! That is the question indeed. 

So really what I'm saying is that I WANT A MAN....but not really...but I do. 

See there's these things called emotions, they kind of mess with your mind; I think sometimes just to see how far they can push you. Joy. 

But once again, I digress.

-Dearest Lovely

through the trees, i will find you

hope.

hope for a little less pain.

hope for the families with no homes.

hope for help from above.

hope for compassion.

hope to keep moving forward.

        Seeing this simply breaks my heart, horror striking in more and more places, people dead or missing, homes and cities torn apart, losing everything and so much more I can hardly comprehend. But I have hope that things will start to be okay, maybe not today or tomorrow, but sometime. I cant imagine losing a loved one so quickly in a mater of days and with everything being practically gone and piled up, who knows if you'd ever find them. 

         My heart goes out to Japan and its people. But I know they have hope, hope that things will get better. Not to mention the chemical outburst from all the nuclear plants, workers going back to help and try to fix the problem. I give them props for doing the right thing. they're all going through so much when I hardly even have to worry that something like that would happen in the U.S. I hope for many things one day not just for me, but for the world.

hope for love.

hope for more happiness.

and less sadness.

hope for more life and color.

and a little less sickness and death.

hope for a better tomorrow.

Je t'aime 

-Dearest Lovely

Zena

I have officially discovered a new love for Zena Holloway, her photography is underwater magic! I've already used one of her photos in a previous post, but now it's time to post some more :) She inspires my friends, her pictures are filled with grace, beauty, and a peacefulness you can feel when you look at her photography! She has most definatly caputred my eye, have a look!

-Dearest Lovely

life goes on

So many experiences and trials I've been through and what hurts you only makes you stronger right? I'm doing my best to be thankful for things that are in my life, the good things, ya know?

so lets see, i'm sooo thankful for:
the gospel
personal prayer
trials
my AMAZING friends
flowers(especially daisies)
smiles
laughter
chap-stick
my DARLING brother
music
bracelets
clay and LOTS of it
optimism
tears
my WONDERFUL mother and
my AWESOME father
ethnicity
love
BOOKS
history
healthy food!
my long hair
blogs
diary's
my life
Je t 'aime
.

-Dearest Lovely

A New Year

I have to say this winter had most definitely been a good one! Not too long ago our church ward had a most wonderful Christmas tree burning, man i gotta say the smell of burning pine isn't too pleasant. But that night was filled with guitar playing and singing, not to mention some awesome friends. Spring is coming so fast, I'm so ready to see some new color and flowers starting to bloom, i honestly don't know what we would do without flowers! A new year filled with new adventures and new friendships being made..what could be better? Even some friends coming back to visit, that is pretty dandy, i hope everyone has a blessed and awesome 2011!

-Dearest lovely