All this money can't buy me a time machine.

Can't replace you with a million rings noooo
I shoulda told you what you meant to me woahh
Cause now I pay the price..

Sometimes,
life turns to crap...complete crap and we become so overwhelmed and afraid that we lose ourselves to the point were getting off the ground isn't an option.
But guess what.
it is.

And you know what the best part is?

There's nowhere to go, but UP <3

-Dearest Lovely

Darling I do.

I wanna run away for awhile, to my hometown. Just for a few days and lounge by the beach
I'd wear a dress and simple vintage shoes.
I'd read a book and gaze at the sea, wondering what it was like to live like the fishes, just keep swimming right?

I would take long walks through the forest like I used to when I was little, and remember when everything seemed whole and complete.

Just for a while, even a day.

-Dearest Lovely

This goes out to you Lisa Mary

SO.

I checked my blog today, and happened to take a look at my comments.

And to my surprise a girl I have never seen or met commented on one of my posts.

WOW.

And she said such nice things about me, things that I needed to hear.
Lisa Mary, you are a shining star. Thank you so much for saying the things you did.For sharing your opinion (which I can totally see from your perspective)
For GIVING me some confidence.
And for this moment in time, reminding me that there are still good people in this world.

Thank you <3

-Dearest Lovely

Always Remember

I. HATE. MOVING.

What a pain!

ANNNDDDD we had to down size big time. Which made me think about whats really important to me, having to choose what you love the most and what to throw away. 

Catching on?

I guess what I'm saying is...that always remember what and who you love the most and would do anything for. Because the worldly things... you just can't take to heaven. 

Never forget who's always been there.

Never forget who's loved you unconditionally.

Never forget.

-Dearest Lovely

My Place.

I learned such a good lesson today.

I.AM.SOMEBODY.

Because nobody is a nobody.

And sometimes, I KNOW we forget that.

We forget that we belong
We forget that we have worth
We forget that we all have potential to change this world
We forget that we are each beautiful.

I learned that I need to do my best to never forget that I am, me.
That there is no one else out there like me, I am the only me.
That I was brought on this earth not just because I chose too, but for a reason.
Someone on this earth needs me, I am somebody's everything.

And to whoever takes the time to read this, So are you.

We are who we are, forever and always.

And forever is a long, long time <3

-Dearest Lovely

I've decided.

That I REALLY need to just stop worrying about stuff. 

Even the stupid and petty little things that really don't matter. I also realized that it's hard to tell someone to chill when you know you'd be freaking out in the same situation. Time to walk the talk.

Maybe:

I should just start meditating erryday. I hear it helps.

Just find a quiet place to relax and file my thoughts in the right order, so I can have a moment of sanity and peace. 

Because to me, it feels like on the outside I'm fine, but on the inside? I'm a complete mess, like the little cogs and knobs that were once harmoniously revolving together like a clock have rusted, broken down, and have begun to effect my life.

That IS going to change.

-Dearest Lovely

P.S. I welcome opportunities to learn and strive to be my best and help others. Service is good for the soul.

Hmph.

Today...is...can I say a not so good day?

I discourage myself...a lot. 

And it kills me....a lot.

I have so many out going friends that just do their own thing and are just simply awesome! and the more I think about it, the more I start to realize how un-awesome I am. I DON'T LIKE IT. So some people say, "Well..that's your fault, change it for yourself." 

Because we all know how helpful THAT is. 

SORRY. 

I'm frazzled. I just see no self worth. And I don't feel so comfty just complaining on facebook, sorry follows, your just gonna hafta bear with me.

Another thought. 

I just wanna be better...because I believe that once I love myself I can love others even more, because I'm confident. But I guess that's for me to fix..

Right?

One of my friends says she wants to make a difference. And she inspires me, a lot. and makes me realize that I'll hafta make myself a better person and make changes in my life. Because to be honest...I want to make a difference too...even just once...in someones life.....just one?......please?

I MUST MAKE MY OWN PATH <3

-Dearest Lovely